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Okay soooo this is just me rambling again, haven't had a good ramble for a while.
Looking at the past year a lot has happened, like I've changed a lot and you know what? I'm glad that I have. Still a nervous guy who doesn't understand people or those weird feelings, well there are some of those feelings I really don't understand at all. Never been one for 'romance' or finding ways to express how I feel probably mentioned it before. But there are a few people I know for almost a year now that I have gotten pretty attached to, it's funny because I can't imagine my life without them at the moment. In fact they have helped me discover who I am a little better. We were talking about when we have to move out in just over a month and a half and I honestly don't really want to move. Next year I'm living with different people and been honest I don't really want to. Sounds a little strange.
Anyhow. University year one (fresher) almost over. And wow it has been amazing. Even considering the friends I've lost I've gotta say happens for a reason. Some might say I was the reason but there is more to it than that. BUT I've met new and interesting people who have helped me so much, there has been people to talk to when I was feeling down, people to just sit with and the occasional times I've had a few people to snuggle up to, hell even getting told that I'm interesting instead of this dull, boring guy has boosted me up. So leaves me thinking about the point of dwelling on the bad things that had happened.
Well we all have bad days but I was having weeks and months of bad times, funny how supportive all the lecturers I've had are too. So one last hurdle until the end of the year is done with, honestly I'm not looking that forward to jumping it.
Looking at the past year a lot has happened, like I've changed a lot and you know what? I'm glad that I have. Still a nervous guy who doesn't understand people or those weird feelings, well there are some of those feelings I really don't understand at all. Never been one for 'romance' or finding ways to express how I feel probably mentioned it before. But there are a few people I know for almost a year now that I have gotten pretty attached to, it's funny because I can't imagine my life without them at the moment. In fact they have helped me discover who I am a little better. We were talking about when we have to move out in just over a month and a half and I honestly don't really want to move. Next year I'm living with different people and been honest I don't really want to. Sounds a little strange.
Anyhow. University year one (fresher) almost over. And wow it has been amazing. Even considering the friends I've lost I've gotta say happens for a reason. Some might say I was the reason but there is more to it than that. BUT I've met new and interesting people who have helped me so much, there has been people to talk to when I was feeling down, people to just sit with and the occasional times I've had a few people to snuggle up to, hell even getting told that I'm interesting instead of this dull, boring guy has boosted me up. So leaves me thinking about the point of dwelling on the bad things that had happened.
Well we all have bad days but I was having weeks and months of bad times, funny how supportive all the lecturers I've had are too. So one last hurdle until the end of the year is done with, honestly I'm not looking that forward to jumping it.
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Heh no, no weddings going on here... Hell it is way way too early to be even thinking about anything like that...
Something new: Me (at least trying to be a noomie... ugh why did I bring that up?)
Something used: My camera ^^
Something borrowed: The lenses from uni because they are so kind as to let me borrow expensive nice things.
ANYWAY!
Over the past few weeks maybe or a while longer I've been a little low, aw boo hoo but it's something I'm trying to turn around. Strange to think that since starting uni I've started to actually think about and plan what I want to do later. Now here is my problem, I want to do most of what I'm doing now. Okay some of the lectures are how to say? Uhm less than exciting but hell some topics are interesting.
My other problem (if you can call it that) is that my interest in photography has been peaked once again. So my question to anyone who reads this is should I keep my photography seperate to here, keep it to my own website which is going pretty badly (it's been in planning for a few years) or should I let you lovely people view it here?
Of course I can't upload my coursework just yet, well I might be able to. Perhaps samples? I dunno HELL I'LL WATERMARK THE SHIT OUT OF THE IMAGES but maybe it's something new.
If you're reading this and are thinking "hell yeah I wanna see his art" then post a lil' comment down there or send me notes or whatever. Otherwise I might just leave it at my flickr page.
Something new: Me (at least trying to be a noomie... ugh why did I bring that up?)
Something used: My camera ^^
Something borrowed: The lenses from uni because they are so kind as to let me borrow expensive nice things.
ANYWAY!
Over the past few weeks maybe or a while longer I've been a little low, aw boo hoo but it's something I'm trying to turn around. Strange to think that since starting uni I've started to actually think about and plan what I want to do later. Now here is my problem, I want to do most of what I'm doing now. Okay some of the lectures are how to say? Uhm less than exciting but hell some topics are interesting.
My other problem (if you can call it that) is that my interest in photography has been peaked once again. So my question to anyone who reads this is should I keep my photography seperate to here, keep it to my own website which is going pretty badly (it's been in planning for a few years) or should I let you lovely people view it here?
Of course I can't upload my coursework just yet, well I might be able to. Perhaps samples? I dunno HELL I'LL WATERMARK THE SHIT OUT OF THE IMAGES but maybe it's something new.
If you're reading this and are thinking "hell yeah I wanna see his art" then post a lil' comment down there or send me notes or whatever. Otherwise I might just leave it at my flickr page.
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Recently...
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Sooo recently I attempted to get into uni "and then, one day... I got in." anyway I moved in on Sunday met the people I'm gonna be spending the next year living with and they are pretty cool. Went out twice to meet people, go do fresher things (mainly drinking and more drinking).
Before however I have been a bit down, not having money sucks but getting let down several times in a short space of time didn't really help either. But now I mean wow. There are so many people that are here that are just as new to this studenty stuff kinda like me, but so far I haven't felt bad about myself. Kinda like I can be a new person here.
Something that I have heard a lot recently especially in the presentations I have been to by the various lecturers is:
"it's better to try and fail than to fail at trying."
But I think my favourite thing I've heard or read so far was about dealing with everything that is gonna come soon. There is like a list but at the end of every list "Allow yourself to make mistakes." One lecturer said that there isn't a set way to study, do what you can. Do your best. But allow yourself to make mistakes, because then, when you overcome your problem, then you know you've learnt something."
Before however I have been a bit down, not having money sucks but getting let down several times in a short space of time didn't really help either. But now I mean wow. There are so many people that are here that are just as new to this studenty stuff kinda like me, but so far I haven't felt bad about myself. Kinda like I can be a new person here.
Something that I have heard a lot recently especially in the presentations I have been to by the various lecturers is:
"it's better to try and fail than to fail at trying."
But I think my favourite thing I've heard or read so far was about dealing with everything that is gonna come soon. There is like a list but at the end of every list "Allow yourself to make mistakes." One lecturer said that there isn't a set way to study, do what you can. Do your best. But allow yourself to make mistakes, because then, when you overcome your problem, then you know you've learnt something."
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Helloooo again
1 min read
Okay sooo not that I have many people I draw for or anything like that, but still I'm gonna apologize for being inactive recently. College has gotten a little full on, and then there has been that worry of what I want to do next. My college course is almost done and to be frank I am bricking it.
Annnd then just as I get into that cycle of constantly doubting myself and beating myself up, wait for it....
All three university courses I have applied for have given me conditional offers, I mean seriously me? Not that I am complaining because I'm not. I am just shocked that I have these offers.
[insert squealing noise here]
Aaaaaaanywaaaaaay.....
I've decided that I should start doing requests, not gonna lie, when it comes to drawing I'm not great at time frames or anything like that but if you want me to try drawing something for you drop me a note. I will be quite busy however so please keep that in mind.
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Okay...
2 min read
Rightio so I kinda said last time that I'd upload more stuff soon and all that other good stuff (really need to re-read what I said) anyway I am having a bit of a hard time at the moment, with my muse and college *sigh* I'm really not sure that I'm good enough anymore... So yeah sorry about that. I think one of my problems is coming back again (yep that's right go for a sympathy vote) should probably get that checked out again...
And since I'm being told to talk about me, not the me I put on to impress everyone or act remotely normal here it goes.
So what have I being up to? Well college really, I'm still finding it a little difficult to talk to people but on the bright side I'm starting to enjoy taking the bus (well some days anyway) I know big woop it's the way a lot of students commute from their various places but still. I've actually started to wish I had my camera with me on several occasions but I've also started writing some things, not particually great things but it's something different you know. What else is new? Well nothing really, I might start posting small bits of what I write here, or then again I might just link you to a site that I (can't seem to get my words out xD)
Oh have I told you how much I dislike Mac's?
Anyway, what I guess I'm saying is; Thanks for watching me (still sounds sinister xD) and there were other things but I think this will do for now.
'Till next time.
And since I'm being told to talk about me, not the me I put on to impress everyone or act remotely normal here it goes.
So what have I being up to? Well college really, I'm still finding it a little difficult to talk to people but on the bright side I'm starting to enjoy taking the bus (well some days anyway) I know big woop it's the way a lot of students commute from their various places but still. I've actually started to wish I had my camera with me on several occasions but I've also started writing some things, not particually great things but it's something different you know. What else is new? Well nothing really, I might start posting small bits of what I write here, or then again I might just link you to a site that I (can't seem to get my words out xD)
Oh have I told you how much I dislike Mac's?
Anyway, what I guess I'm saying is; Thanks for watching me (still sounds sinister xD) and there were other things but I think this will do for now.
'Till next time.
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